That Vulnerable Void.

There is a void Lord that needs to be filled...

I’ve tried filling this void with other things; like people and exploits, tasks and objects…

Things just don’t seem to be enough. And people, well people reveal their human self: imperfect, wicked, hurtful and selfish.

They make you feel wanted for a while.

They make you go the extra mile.

They make you wanna be a better person.

But for a while, then they leave.

Or I push them away.

Why am I this way God?

What makes me depend on them?

Is it this void Lord ? Is it this emptiness ?

Why am I this way Lord?

Why so dependent on things that the eyes can see?

Why won’t I depend on you; who is more real than reality itself?

The one who can fill every void.

The one who can make me feel complete.

The one who’s always there for me; day or night.

I hear your tender voice talking to me even now.

Assuring that things will be okay,

That everything will fall in its place and that everything will make perfect sense when I look back.

Your tender voice reminds me of all the good things I still have left.

And that you have removed from me everything I don’t need anymore, everything that brings me down and everyone who could hurt my bond with you.

Yes, even the ones who have passed on have been taken away while you still had me on Your mind.

So that you can fill that void too.

Your Jealous heart makes me feel special.

And why wouldn’t you be Zealous about me,

You did die for me after all.

You did take my place.

You showed me unconditional love even when I knew nothing about you.

You purchased me with your own blood.

You made with your own hands.

Why wouldn’t you be possessive?

Why wouldn’t you push away everyone who draw me away from you?

I love Your Love.

If I come back will you take me back?

If I run to you will you catch me?

Absolutely you would!

You love me.

You have always been there by my side, even in times when I didn’t see you.

You have always looked out for me.

You have always wanted the best for me.

So now I run to you, Catch me!

I hide myself in you.

Hold my heart, preserve it so I won’t hurt You, the one who loves me.

You will cover me with your wings and refresh me every moment.

My Love,

My Father,

My Friend,

My Brother,

My Creator,

My Everything…

I am made whole.

In you I am complete.

No hurt, no lies, no denial, No Void.

Im yours! Always have been.